“To L and Back” is a podcast from Autostraddle.com in which CEO / Editor-in-Chief Riese Bernard and her co-host, filmmaker and showrunner Carly Usdin, re-watch and discuss every episode of the iconic lesbian series The L Word.

I made my triumphant return to AS — where I was formerly the Feminism Editor, Community Director and Social Media Co-Director for Autostraddle, and wrote about watching the show for the first time back in 2014 — to join them for a recap of episode 206: “Lagrimas de Oro.” (Also known as the episode “in which Carmen De La Pica Morales pours a lot of beer on Shane’s shirt, Shane gets a very attentive flower delivery person, Dana plays in the Rooti Tooti Fresh and Fruity Tennis Tournament but is a little distracted about how badly she needs to tell Ton-Ton that she’s totally not in this relationship anymore, Alice has knit herself a full outfit, Bette wears jeans for the first time and would like to talk about what Tina’s gonna do with that baby, and Helena gets really horny at a donor dinner and invites Tina to hang at the Chateau Marmont pool… NAKED. Also, Charlotte Birch holds office hours at the gym and Carmen wears a controversial t-shirt!”)

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